The zine was made to celebrate one year of being in my Buffy concept punx band The Potentials but as I'm in the middle of burnout to the max, it's a little bit late. Soz. You can get copies from me at Northwest Zine Fest next month or from my online zine shop here:
It's a year since we sacked off the Buffy rpg Shahnaz, Zak and I were supposed to be playing and started a Buffy themed band instead!
I'm not in the habit of celebrating birthdays of bands I've been in but this one felt a bit special. I've always played keyboards in all the bands I've been in, and I think I've always just been dead scared of playing guitar because it is so unnatural to play and I really should have started when I was young and didn't give a shit rather than when I was 30 and anxious. My teenage guitar was beautiful but unused. It had a bis Starbright Boy sticker on it, and I used to download tabs for green day and hole in the college library, but didn't know how to use them and couldn't make my fingers do what I wanted so I gave up. It was a really nice bis sticker though.
So it's been a year since I picked up a guitar for the first time, and I haven't really gotten any better than that first practice, but I have stuck with it and had so much fun and played shows and written songs with my mates and played with lots of ace people. Diy punx have been dead kind to us in the last year and it's felt pretty special and I'm glad we got to throw a birthday party with some of our favourite people like Molar and Just Blankets and Junk. We played pass the parcel, got gifts to Lewisham Food Bank, and forgot how to play some of our songs. It was the best!
Apparently it has been 13 years since Buffy went off the air, and somehow a telly show I used to be obsessed with at school still means the world to me. Enough for me to be in a Buffy band and write zines about it. And while it's dated in some pretty bad ways and there are plenty of problematic aspects to pick apart, the show is still fully ingrained in me. I was at school when Buffy was, I went to 6th form when Buffy went to college, I came out as queer around the same time as Willow, and I'm a big fan of living in the past apparently. Last week I'd had the worst day at work and felt so angry and frustrated and tired to my bones and I came home and watched the season 5 episode Checkpoint so I could watch Buffy tell the Watchers Council to go fuck themselves. It's a security blanket and was exactly what I needed even though I've seen that episode a billion times and could quote it by hear. Who hasn't wanted to throw a giant sword in the workplace?